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This is Now

Sunday, March 28, 2010
I planned to move out with a friend next year. Honestly, I would still love to, but I don't think she's interested in that anymore. We change our priorities and it's okay. Now I have more financial freedom to travel.

I really don't have any reason to move out. I have a roof over my head. I have my own room and and washroom space. My parents are always there for me, and so forth. But I do want to experience living by myself. I have an obsession with picking up responsibilities. I enjoy proving to myself that I can be independent. It makes me feel safe that I know I can take care of myself.

I enjoy escaping. Although traveling to different places is great, I simply just like taking a break from my responsibilities once in awhile. I think what I'll love to do in the future is a position where I can work hard for a period and then take a break for a period. I rather stress myself for a few months and take a short break, then have a nine to five job. If I wasn't going to go to Toronto this year, I think I would just book a hotel room in downtown Vancouver for a few days to escape.

Who's better at pampering you than yourself? You know what you love and what you enjoy. I sat at a food court today sipping my cherry mocha and it was the best fifteen minute I've had by myself in the past few weeks. It was nice.

I've never noticed how much of a bond I've developed with my coworkers. We are a staff of over 50 people, but with a handful of them, I can have a great time. It must mean much if I can spent four nights in a row with them--that's work and going out. But then again, I spent two intense weeks with some of them during the Olympics. I feel lucky that I have them in my life.

I'm happy that I found someone that loves me as much as I love them. It's rare to find a friend like that. She's not here to replace anyone (for those who read my blog). The old could never be replaced by the new. She has a special place in my heart and despite new friendships arising, she will never be forgotten. But anyway, this lovely lady is pretty much my twin. It's scary because I've said in the past that I would hate someone if they were exactly like me. However, we have enough differences that we can be amazing friends. Then again, this friendship is relatively new, so I can't say much. Maybe talk to me in another four years.

Then there's another. He's pretty awesome. Although, sometimes he spills his guts when he's under the influence. Whatever the case, we can confide in each other. It's odd to be comfortable and trusting with someone so quickly. And before any assumptions are made, no, we are not interested in each other.

I think the guys find it odd that I can hang out with them (with no other girls around) comfortably. On top of that, I give them honest answers about girls. But hey, I suppose that's what I'm good at sometimes. Anyway, I like to think I can fit in with the guys at times... with the exception of their mundane conversation about hockey sticks. Honestly, they can get really in depth when talking about the flex, length, and materials. Zzz. I probably surprise them with some of the comments I make. My degree of censorship varies with the setting... muahahaha.

I'm enjoying my life. Most things are good. I try not to publicly announce the negatives in my life. The more I keep a happy face on, the more I genuinely feel happy (sometimes).

It's one in the morning. Maybe I'll sleep before 4 am for once. It'll be nice to get a decent amount of sleep... just maybe. Good night world.

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Another Tomorrow

Friday, March 26, 2010
I realized that it's pretty convenient to have this out since I can access it on my phone anytime I want. So... here's another "tomorrow" post.

My plan:
.place MS Walk volunteers
.call and confirm MS Walk volunteers
.have a list of potential sponsors for CR (b by b) account
.followup on Brad's progress for CR (b by b) account
.BOL II: part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15
.writeup for ___'s birthday scrapbook
.HIST online lessons 13-24
.CMNS323 research paper
.CMNS324 term paper

I am going to crash soon. I don't know if I can go on like this until the end of April. 'sigh' Oh well, I enjoy it, but I feel like I am not absorbing enough material from school. Being a student is my full time job right now and I'm not doing it very well. I spend more hours at work than studying. Heck, I spend more time working on various volunteer projects than readings.

Work work work work work...

I planned to take a break during summer. The only thing I was going to do was Coop (37.5 hours/week). Then I decided that I will work at CTS. After that, I applied to be a board member of YWiB. And now, I'm contemplating on applying to be the Faculty of Communication Frosh Chair or Vice Chair. Or maybe even run for SMA CR Director. Hmm...

I think I'll just give up and let myself do what I want to do. Is there such a thing as being too ambitious?

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Tomorrow

Sunday, March 21, 2010
My plan:
.finish my three page proposal
.start and finish my advertising paper
.finish making soccer cake balls for manager (he's leaving... *sniff*)
.call and confirm MS Walk volunteers
.combine notes for CR (musician) account
.write sponsorship letter for CR (b by b) account
.prep for Tuesday's North Van meeting
.start BOL II
.HIST online lessons 13-18

I have to complete the first three by tomorrow night. It's not optional. I have a feeling I'll be pulling an all-nighter. Joyous.

Good thing is that Starbucks gave me a free drink certificate for my birthday. I think they knew about my busy Monday. I'm excited for my five shot, venti, non fat, no whip, cherry mocha. Yum =)

So anyways, I had a really enjoyable night today. I think I found my new "escape" spot. It's only an hour away from home, but it's so nice. It reminds me of Victoria near the Empress Hotel looking out at the water. So peaceful and beautiful. Beautiful British Columbia is my home.

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Summer 2010

Friday, March 19, 2010
Here are my plans for next semester (so far). Yes, as a student, my life is separated into semesters. 'sigh'

May
02 CTS: Brooks & Dunn
?? coop officially begins
09 CTS: Eagles
15 CTS: Celtic Woman
21 Toronto Trip
22 Taylor Swift concert
24 back to Vancouver

June
27 Much Ado About Nothing (Bard on the Beach)

July
01 Canada Day in North Vancouver (I wonder if I get stat pay...)

August
02 BC Day (day off!)
?? coop ends
20 CTS: Michael Buble
23 CTS: Lady Gaga

*note: this post will be constantly updated

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Today is Friday, March 12, 2010

Friday, March 12, 2010
There's so much I want to do with my life. I've always been the person that jumps from one place to another. Yet at the same time, when I sit back and look into my life from the outside, I feel very lonely.

What I know and what I feel are such separate entities (I question my word choice, but hey, this isn't a formal paper). I know that I am making an impact in people's lives. I know that I am not just another person walking down the street. I know that I can and I will make a difference in the future. Yet at the same time, I feel like I can disappear and no one will notice. And if they do, I can be easily replaced.

Sometimes it seems like I'm just there. I suppose it's the consequence of always hurrying around. I don't spend hours upon hours developing friendships. But at the same time, I try to be there for people when they most need it. Selfishly, I feel like people don't have time for me. We all lead busy lives. I'm not going to compare who's busier because different people have different ideas on how they want to spend their time. Yet it hurts to see that I am rarely (if ever) called out to hang out, have a cup of coffee, or even have a study date. I understand I have a history of being busy (and still am), but that doesn't mean that I don't do other things.

It sounds like I am complaining now. I am not. I'm just typing my thoughts down. Sometimes it helps just letting it out. Although it's probably better to talk to someone rather than screaming it out to the world (not really, but blogging is very public and I have no idea who reads this).

I'm just procrastinating at this point. I need to step back and take a breather. My shift today got canceled. I'm happy and sad about it. I'm glad I have more time to do work. Yet at the same time, I need the money.

I don't need income in the sense that I cannot survive without it. Luckily, I am fortunate enough to have a financially stable family to provide the basic needs. Sure, I pay for tuition and so forth, but it's because I choose to, not because I need to.

I am excited for coop to start. It'll provide the opportunity that I was looking for, plus the income that I want. I was cleaning my room the other day and I realized that I have a lot of stuff. I've collected many treasures (in my eyes) throughout the years. Many things that I figured I should keep because it may be useful in the future. I think I'm going to clean it out. I want to overhaul my life.

There are closets full of stuff I don't use anymore. I have books and magazines. I have shelves full of craft supplies. I have boxes full of old learning materials. I have tubs of childhood toys. I have piles of clothes. I have bags of makeup. I want to clear it all up. Maybe I'll sell some stuff and donate the rest.

I don't want to part from them because they are my possessions. Yet at the end of the day, if I haven't touched them for months or even years... how important are they? Do I really need it?

That way of thinking has really curved my shopping styles. I love purchasing new items. But I know that if it's not something I need and if I don't deserve the little treat, I shouldn't bring it home--even if it's a good deal.

I don't plan to change my life. I have no need to do that, but I want to start on a clean slate. I think my cleaning out my stuff, it'll help me clear my thoughts as well. I need to get rid of all the baggage that's weighing me down!

That makes no sense... meh. By the way, if you're still reading, do you enjoy my change in subject? There's no way I can tie this post together into a coherent idea. Plus, I do that enough already for school. Also, there are many flaws with the thoughts I've typed up in this post. Don't you think I deserve to type mindlessly?

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I just did a word count and it said I typed 737 words. Wow. Procrastination much?

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Umm yeah...

Wednesday, March 10, 2010
The awkward facing seats on the buses make interesting people watching sometimes.

There was a young white couple (obviously not well off [please note that I'm not discriminating people that aren't swimming in wealth. I'm simply stereotyping to paint a picture in your head]) sitting across from me. Like usual, I had my iPod on. They are very open with their affection towards each other and lead a very different lifestyle than I do.

The female started making typical asian faces (^-^Y) and then, realizing that I was asian (and non responsive to their conversation), she continues to make fun of the typical asian gestures. She then continues with other asian stereotypes such as making fun of asian males with small penises, and so forth. I suppose her goal was to annoy me. Instead, I felt guilty.

I know it's an odd feeling considering the situation, but I felt guilty because I started judging her. I felt bad for her because of her financial situation (judged by her clothing). I felt bad for her being in the social setting (she was talking about beating people up and being spat on, etc). And then I felt good about myself because I know that I will eventually have a financially stable, happy, and safe life.

Yeah, I'm not perfect either.

Oh well.

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Teach WHAT in China?

Tuesday, March 9, 2010
So I just received a email from Co-op Advising for new international co-op opportunities. There was one that just made me literally "lol": "Teach Math in China".

Seriously?

"Students will teach grade 12 level math to students in China."

I don't know about you, but my understanding is that China's mathematics (in terms of academics) are much more advanced than Canada's. This was placed under the Science faulty too. I supposed any second year university student should have an advanced understanding of math. However, it's still a strange thought to want a Canadian university student teaching math in China.

What do you think?

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An Ace and a Queen

Sunday, March 7, 2010
...21 or 11, you take the pick.

This year, I'm going to keep it low key. No big organized parties. If you people want to hang out, feel free to call me out for dinner, dessert, drinks, and so on.

Oh, and to void any comments such as "you're always busy" or "I don't know when you're free", here is my availability for the end of March.

18. work 5-10.30
19.
20. work 5-10.30
21. ladies' night
22.
23. burnaby campus 11.30-3.20; meeting in North Van 5-6; dinner with family 7-9 ish
24. downtown campus 12.30-5.20; work 5-10.30
25. work 4.30-12
26.
27. boat cruise 7-11 pm
28. meeting in Richmond 4-6

*Gasp*!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Does volunteering pay off? Yes.
Is community involvement important? Yes.
Is school involvement in clubs important? Yes.

Sure, sometimes I do things and I realize that I hate it. I see it more of a good thing rather than a waste of time. I am able to cross things out. Deduction ftw!

Weeee~

This is a very fragmented post with only one purpose.

Guess what?

...

I got the first co-op position I interviewed for!

The best part? It was the only position I really wanted.

More details...

Ever since I decided on my major, I have done a lot of thinking in regards to career paths I would want to pursue. I ended up with three; one of them being event planning. I have always enjoyed the logistics of events. Even in everyday life, I enjoy being kept busy going from one thing to another. So event planning fits perfectly for me. There are cons though to balance off the pros. If I do end up in event planning, it'll be difficult to keep a family (depending on the husband of course) due to the busy and irregular schedule. Also, it may involve a lot of traveling. Another is that the market in Vancouver for it is not very big. I would either have to settle with less income or relocate. But either way, I am excited for this co-op position because it'll help me in crossing it off my list or pushing it to the top.

By the way, check me out in July because I'll be event planning Canada Day in North Van. =)

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Olympics Recap: Men's Curling

Monday, March 1, 2010
Gold Canada Gold!


Morris is second from the right.

We achieved one of the few golds that mattered: men's curling. My favourite player has to be John Morris. His ability to knock out the opponent's rocks out is drool worthy.

He is a team player...
"It's amazing what a team can accomplish when no one cares who gets the credit." -Morris (Slam Sports, 04 Dec 2005)

and cute...
"He started curling at age of five." (CP, 23 Mar 2008)

and bad-ass.
"Morris was known as the bad boy of curling, regularly breaking brooms during games and ripping his shirt off after losing." (thestar.com, 09 Mar 2009)

Hot stuff! Wait, did I mention he's a firefighter too?

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